Car accidents change things…

Friday, April 17th, 2015 I was on my way to pick up 19 Pokemon cards for $2 (Leyton was spending some of his birthday money and I was being a good mom ūüôā Instead of picking up the cards I was in an awful car accident.

Here’s the car accident breakdown: I was driving on Highway 21, I had my blinker on from changing lanes, a car at a side road thought I was turning at Duluth Ave. and pulled out in front of me NO WARNING. It happened so fast I had no time to react or brake. So, we¬†hit hard, the airbag deployed and, although it probably saved my life, it cracked my sternum. I remember¬†feeling dazed and then hearing clara crying. I got out of the car and went to her…after seeing she was okay I realized I couldn’t breathe and sat down. The kindness of people was everywhere at the scene of the car accident and at the hospital…the kindness of strangers brings me to tears even now. (I remember a “biker” guy who left his bike in the middle of the road and wouldn’t leave my side until he knew I was safe in the hands of the medical people.) The ambulance¬†took us to the hospital, and a CT scan to rule out any other injuries. The pain was¬†crazy. I couldn’t stop throwing up (a bad reaction to pain meds) and throwing up with a cracked sternum feels like someone is shooting you at point blank over and over. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. They kept me overnight to monitor me (and the pain.) On Saturday, I came home with bruises on my nose, elbow, hip, knees and chest. But, I was home…and that felt better.

I had this strange haze around me that I was saved and I knew it was for a reason. 

The accident meant I couldn’t fly to England to see my sister, but in a whirlwind she decided to come here and help me. And she did. In so many ways. Having a sister is like nothing else. She bossed me around and cared for me in exactly the way I needed.

I’m praying that the worst is behind us…cause it’s been miserable. I’m thankful that this will heal, Clara wasn’t hurt badly, I’m not in the middle of wedding season and we have already reached our medical deductible this year! Car accidents are awful, but God is good.

I’m trying to process everything and that’s not easy. I’m so emotional these days. I feel like I cry all the time. I’m sure this is normal, it’s just not normal for me. I’m trying to just “be” and crying is part of that.

Driving is hard. I’m jumpy and cautious. (Especially with black cars merging on the right side.) I will be okay, I know that, but it’s weird to experience the lasting effects of a car accident. It’s like my insides remember…my heart remembers what my brain wants to forget. Does that make sense? I want to trust the cars around me to¬†do what they are supposed to do, but I can’t yet.

Seeing these pictures you know why.

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This was a horrible crash. I went for 45 miles an hour to zero in one spilt second. But, I’m thankful for only bruises on Clara. I’m thankful the front glass didn’t shatter. I’m thankful the other guy walked away with only a sore shoulder…not sure how, cause I crushed his car. I’m thankful I’m here. Thankful for friends and family. Thankful for the kindness of strangers. Thankful I’m not done with this life. So, you’re stuck with me for a little longer.

How am I doing?¬†I just need to rest…Lord, help me to do that. (It’s not easy for me¬†to lay still and let other people help me…but, I’m trying.) Thank you for all your kind words through social media, meals, cards, caring for my kids, praying and loving me. I’m overwhelmed with thankfulness.

Tina albright - April 29, 2015 - 3:33 pm

God is Good! Sending up special prayers for you and your family!

Noemi - April 29, 2015 - 4:20 pm

Thank you! WE need them!

Julia - April 29, 2015 - 5:42 pm

Oh, sweet frieend, I’m so sorry! I’m so glad you & Clara are ok. The healing will take a while I’m sure, physically & emotionally, so be kind to yourself! I’m glad you have a bit of time to recover before busy wedding season!

Noemi - April 29, 2015 - 7:33 pm

I will…or I’ll try. love you.

Susse Thrane - April 30, 2015 - 12:00 am

I so understand your pain in the aftermath of your accident. It’s the relief of having survived, but it is so much more that your physical body is remembering the shock and trauma of the accident that is making you cry. You need to permit yourself to cry as much as it takes to get through it. It’s normal and okay. Is Elizabeth still with you?

Julie - April 30, 2015 - 5:24 am

I am so thankful you and Clara are okay! How scary that had to be! Sending many prayers for your physical recovery as well as your emotional recovery! Hugs from Indiana!

Noemi - April 30, 2015 - 7:06 am

She left earlier this week…I’m missing her loads.

Noemi - April 30, 2015 - 7:06 am

Thank you for praying!

Jennifer - May 5, 2015 - 8:46 am

Such a scary experience. I am so glad you are ok. I fell asleep at the wheel going 70 mph with the cruise control set when I was driving in college. Thankfully when we went off the road I woke up and I did not hit anything, but it did result in 2 popped tires and a disabled vehicle. It was very scary. I wound up not being able to sleep for a week as every time I dozed off I would jolt awake. Take your time getting used to driving again. Be cautious and remind yourself over and over again that God is good. Prayers.

Noemi - May 5, 2015 - 1:45 pm

I’m learning to take slow steps…not easy for me.

Janine Allen-Jordan - March 13, 2016 - 11:52 pm

Hi Noemi,
I hope you are feeling much better from your accident. It is nearly 12 months ago now. I wanted to remind you, if you haven’t done it already about the prayers for accident and trauma we learn about at Ellel Ministries. Have you had these prayers over you, if not get Matt to pray.
Much love,
Janine

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